Happiness is something that doesn’t come easy to me. Call me a glass is half empty, pessimistic kinda gal. I see the worst in every scenario. Despite all this I can clearly see my pattern of behavior. I take out my unhappiness on my loved ones. I am not unaware of the damage I cause. I understand what I’m doing is completely self destructive. I continue my bad habits knowing I’m going to get the same unhappy results.
Recently at a family event I listened to myself whine about traffic and the long drive. I realized this is who I’ve become. I’ve turned into a ungrateful- self indulgent-everyone is out to get me- unhappy person. A person who can’t see beyond their own problems. The universe is so unfair and everyone feel sorry for me.
I have no great accomplishments. I simply have a list of faults and problems that I willingly pass around so everyone will feel bad for poor pitiful me.
I want everyone to feel as horrible as I do.
I. am. my. own. worst. nightmare.
I am everything I never wanted to be.
So TK you are officially on your final warning. Buck up. Get your act together. Be grateful and humble. Increased gratitude will directly increase your happiness. Have hope and faith that things will work out. Be kind to others and especially your loved ones. Exercise your inner demons to the point of expulsion. Find out why you think you don’t deserve to be happy and banish that reason to the depths of a never ending abyss. Confront your problems head on instead of wallowing. Deal lady.
And most importantly….